The Monday Music Medicine Show

The Monday Music Medicine Show LOGO

Welcome to the Monday Music Medicine Show!

About 10 years ago, maybe more, someone sent me a link to this song. While it may not have the same affect on you, for me, it began a long standing, if I hear it, I can’t turn it off – or more precisely, I don’t want to, at any rate. And then it got stuck in my head, which I’ve discovered, for most songs, if I listen to them again, they will go away… but not so with the Leekspin song (otherwise really known as Levan’s Polka). Putting it on only pulled me in deeper.


So my beautiful Monday Music Medicine Show friends, what songs get stuck in your head, and won’t leave you alone? You know I want to hear it. Please share it there (your own blog with a ping back), or share it here.

BYOM and  remember: It Don’t Mean A Thing If You Don’t Send That PING!

Music is the Medicine in my Soul and I hope yours is as healing and nurturing as mine!

Singing Smiley


The Sandbox Writing Challenge – Stillness

Time to go play in the sandbox, graciously provided by the lovely Lady Calen of Impromptu Promptlings.

Exercise 3: What is it that keeps you from being still?

When I saw that the actual prompt was, “What is it that keeps me from being still,” my first thought was, why on earth would I want to keep still? It’s actually not in my nature to be still. I’m a fire sign, the element which is about manifesting through action.

I suspect, it is why I’ve had some difficulty with traditional meditation. As I read through Calen’s own post, I thought that is something I would have written, since it describes WHY I am the way I am; or, really, just the way I am, but not why so much.

Generally speaking, panic disorder doesn’t leave room for stillness. However, I have learned a lot about managing my own panic condition over the years, and have used other, less STILL forms of meditation to reach the inner realms where peace, and calm reside.

I would ask, what is the definition of being STILL? I can be still physically, while my mind is a wild herd of galloping turtles. What will stillness bring to my inner journey? What is gained in stillness? All questions I still need to answer. Of course, those who are sky high in the journey of self discovery, probably already understands the need for stillness – and some other part of me does also.

Yes, I’ve had my times, especially in certain places where I have felt exquisitely calm. I can’t say that I was specifically still. A walk through the woods brings me to that place of peace, where frantic doesn’t live. Perhaps that is what stillness is for me.

Thus, the answer, being out in the place I’m most comfortable; in the midst of Nature, hearing, seeing, smelling, feeling, tasting, brings me a sense of stillness without having to sit still. Look at the picture up at the top of my blog. In that photo is my Stillness… For today, at least.

Oh, right. What keeps me from being still? My nature.

The Monday Music Medicine Show

The Monday Music Medicine Show LOGO

Welcome to the Monday Music Medicine Show!

When I stepped outside this morning, to see what the day was like, much to my surprise, I found this on the walk way:


I’d like to think it’s way too early, but in 9 days, we’ll be in September, and it will be that time again, and we’ll see them coming down:

This version, and singer, are new to me. I discovered her while I was looking for the traditional version of the song, and stopped to click. Her name, Eva Cassidy, is familiar, but I don’t recall hearing her before.

So my beautiful Monday Music Medicine Show friends, what songs come to mind as the Wheel is near turning? What memories do you carry with you beyond their moment in time? You know I want to hear it. Please share a song that you associate with this time of year.

Share it there (your own blog with a ping back), or share it here.

BYOM and  remember: It Don’t Mean A Thing If You Don’t Send That PING!

Music is the Medicine in my Soul and I hope yours is as healing and nurturing as mine!

Singing Smiley

The Sandbox Writing Challenge – Balance

The Lady Calen of Impromptu Promptlings has gifted us with the next step in The Sandbox Writing Challenge!

Exercise 2

It’s all about Balance. Do you consider yourself a balanced person? What are some of the things you do on a daily, weekly, etc. basis to keep yourself balanced? If you don’t feel you are, what can you do to help you find some of that needed balance?

My first thought was, I’m highly unbalanced. Probably more because of my very contradictory likes. On the one hand, I’m drawn to some rather dark interests – books I read (post apocalyptic), movies and series I watch – The Walking Dead; The Sons of Anarchy; Vampire movies, Stephen King novels, CSI, Dexter… you get the picture.

On the other hand, I am also drawn to very light, fun, and up shows: Everwood, Gilmore Girls, McLeod’s Daughters – very family oriented shows, and movies like “Eat, Pray, Love,” “Serendipity,” “Sleepless in Seattle”, and ‘The Lake House”, “You’ve Got Mail” – Mr. Quantum and my anniversary movie…

How I navigate life’s challenges, usually begins with disaster thinking; Oh No! with lots of over the top beliefs of ‘I’ve lost everything,’ or ‘I’m losing control,’ and my panic disorder brings me to my knees, screaming, ‘make it go away.’ Though I have worked hard at panic management, and have come to understand that there is nothing wrong with asking for support, of which Mr. Quantum is stellar! I’m phobic – the worst was agoraphobia, where I couldn’t even leave the comfort of my home, couldn’t drive, and stayed stuck in a spiral of fear, dread, and misbeliefs that, in the moment, I was taking my last breaths.

While the panic management has morphed the texture of my anxiety, and how I react, I’m still tricked by that disaster thinking, which is a Langolier,* with great chomping teeth that I’m sure will consume me. However, I somehow have the ability to ‘turn on a dime,’ as the saying goes. Case in point.

In 2005, Q and I moved up here to the Northeast from Texas. We’re sitting with a ton of bags, and waiting for Amtrak to come into the  station. It’s always a long wait. Suddenly, over the loud speaker, the last call for our train is heard! WHAT????? No! We’re gonna miss the train! So we gather our things, running, huffing and puffing, and me losing my mind to the stupid ‘what ifs’ and all the ear mark rubbish of disaster thinking, only to arrive on the platform, and find the train has not yet pulled into the station. Of course, in that first moment of not seeing the train there, I freaked even more… but as I turned around and saw it coming down the track toward us, not moving away,  suddenly, as if I never had gone berserk, everything stopped, seemingly like my molicules were re-organizing themselves after teleportation. I was fine. That eternity of stupid thinking was gone, appearing to never have happened.

The other side of the  coin is my spiritual approach to life. It’s  quite Pagan, Nature based, and I have a huge respect for and love of all brother and sister beings. My days are spent following the Wheel of the Year. I’m more aware of consciously moving with the cycles of Mama Gaia, and find my thinking has opened up, allowing me to see that I am part of, not separate from, the rest of life and All That Is. The books which come with that side are written by authors like Pema Chodron, Lao Tzu, Deng Ming Dow. I’ve discovered new tools to help me in my Earthwalk like Tarot and oracle cards to connect to inner understanding, and hopefully, being able to help other people as well.

I was born with a vivid imagination, and that is double sided, too. Visualization has played a great part in being able to flip that switch from asleep (when I walk in chaos), to awake (when I live mindfully).  I’ve learned over the years to use that in meditation, and to begin healing the insults of the tragedies of childhood – that which needs more intensive work – to accepting mortality and living more authentically which is actually of gift of the process of maturing (aging).

No, I have not left out that special thing which has impacted my life as much, and along with all the ups and downs: my music is as varied as my tastes in reading and watching, but it is integral in everything I am, and do.

So, when I look back at it, it really paints a picture of balance.

Mundane Monday #20

Thanks to Pho Trablogger, I get to delve into another, and rather new passion, through the lens of a camera.  Today’s Mundane Monday photo challenge brought me to a mystery:


What is hidden inside that red chest? There is a story behind it, which I’ll save for another day, but what I like about this picture is the flash of color in contrast to the old wood, and the way the sunlight dapples upon that wood.

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